Friday 20 November 2009

Fado


To turn sadness and the emotions of loss into such an elevated form of spiritual resonance with life through music is an amazing feat! There must be something special about the Portuguese.

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Friday 13 November 2009

A Royal Dip

He called it his Royal Dip. Four or five days a week, he would fill the hydro-massage tub in one of his bathrooms with hot water and soak his tired bones in it for half an hour to an hour at a time. More so in the winter months. Always in the early hours of the evening.

Sometimes the water would be too hot and he would remember what one of his cousins told him about too much hot water not being good for a man’s semen.

He was old now and did not care much. Over the years he had several relationships but no children. But every now and then he would dream about a young daughter, four or five years old, hugging him. He loved children.

Whenever he remembered his cousin’s words, he would also remember the only child he almost had. He was engaged-to-be-married to someone when she became pregnant. She insisted on having an abortion and he never understood why. He had given her an engagement ring and they were betrothed but for a written document. And were planning for a wedding.

It was only later, many years later, as he recalled snippets of conversations he had with one of her cousins, that it occurred to him: she had no intention of staying married to him for long. He was her ticket out of a particular reality. She intended to leave him afterwards and did not want anything to hinder that. No traces of him left in her life.

When he took her to the OBGYN’s, she asked for a female doctor and the first one refused to perform the abortion. The second doctor came into the room where they were and put the echo sensor on her stomach. The image of their unborn child in her belly was on the screen next to the clinic’s bed she was lying on.

He still remembers the doctor saying “it’s a healthy baby boy.” His fiancĂ© tilted her head sideways, looked at the screen and said that she would like to have the abortion performed as soon as possible.

He asked her many times afterwards why she did it. He told her that he needed to understand and that this was important for them to continue being together. Why did she insist on having an abortion when they were engaged, living together and planning to marry? She never gave him an answer and their relationship fell apart.

I felt sorry for him; to be reminded of such a sad episode when he was supposed to be relaxing in a bathtub. But I guess ghosts of lives past are everywhere.

Monday 9 November 2009

Stock Market Notes II: Liquidity


Please click on link below for my latest commentary on stock market liquidity...

Monday 2 November 2009

Stock Market Notes I : What's in an Exchange?


My latest note on the stock market and exchange sector at link below...